Random Thoughts

Three people in my life so far, I have loved them.They told me that they: Loved Adored Needed Wanted Me. I doubt anyone will ever feel that deeply for me. I don't even care if they fall out of love in time. I just want someone to love me so much that they fall in love with me and swim in the ultimate connection of being "at one" with me. Two complementary souls, blending with each other, happy to be mirrors. I would think that it's going to be a fantasy for me the rest of my life. But I met a girl online on some social media site. Everyday at least twice I think about this girl who I really love and she likes me back. The problem is that I live in Delhi and she lives in Chandigarh. I haven't seen her, we were thinking of having a long distance relationship. It's hard because we can't be together in person. We are in contact with each other, but it's not easy and emotional. I actually cry at night sometimes and I know it isn't right for guy like mys

I screamed but no one hears, I failed trying to communicate I can see everyone but no one hears me. No one really listens all they hear is from their own heart, their own desires, their own ambition. Today Siting in my office all alone feeling very much disowned by my office colleague and my friends. These days I am very much upset can't find way to escape, don't have enough courage to fight the situation. I don't know ke mai apni baate kis se bolu . So I thought to write it down I have been having tons of dreams about her my first love but the strange thing is her fiance is in all of them. In my last dream. I was some how homeless and she let me stay with her and her fiance (who was kind of senior in my office) I just remember that in the dream she was around a lot but was very cold to me yet at the same time very concerned. I remember a lot of old emotions coming back and me wanting her acceptance. We were together her living room and me leaving the house telling her I w

I know I can scream and scream but no one will come and save me what's the point of screaming . I am a lost cause. The screams fill my ears, blood flows down my arms, I can no longer scream, my voice has grown weak, the darkness comes out of the shadows , I can feel its cold , icy embrace, I close my eyes, and embrace the darkness, I can no longer fight it . It is amazing how the existence of some people in our life can make us smile from the heart out. I Really, Really Need a Hug " jadu ki jhappi "

REMEMBER that time you poured your heart out in an email to your best friend after one too many glasses of wine? Or that sexy message from an old lover that made you blush at work? Well, if you die, your family and others could end up reading them. Web email services owned by internet giants Google and Microsoft have a policy of keeping your data after you die and letting your next of kin or the executor of your estate access it. Accounts with Google's Gmail can hold up to 7GB - or roughly 70,000 emails with a small to medium picture attached to each and they archive the messages you've written as well as received. When it comes to deleting the data, Microsoft's Hotmail will remove an account if it is inactive for 270 days, while Gmail leaves the responsibility to the next of kin. Of the top three providers, only Yahoo refuses to supply emails to anyone after the user has died. The user's next of kin can ask for the account to be closed, but cannot gain access to it. A

I never thought that I would ever be in Love....let alone find true & real love.Until one day I met the Love of My Life & Soul mate. She is soo amazing & perfect. She makes me the happiest that I have ever been. Just when I think that I can fall more in Love with her...she always ends up proving me wrong...I fall more in love with her every single day. She makes me want things that I have never wanted before, like marriage & kids & a family. She makes me feel things that I never thought I would or could ever feel. I feel soo loved & wanted & needed. I know that I should not love you the way I do.... no I can't its wrong but I love you anyways. I know you can never know but a part of me still longs to tell you. When you are near me it takes all my self control to not shout it out In fact I can't dare to tell you. I wish you say the smallest thing and it will bring a smile to my lips but you can never know so i must stay here with this broken heart a

When I saw her for the first time she was slim, shy, sincere, decent, punctual, still she is the same... I usually watch her very now and then as the moment I get free. I really want her to look at me...just once! However, the irony of life kills me. She never even give me a look, even a short and a simple glance back, this fact does not change my attitude towards her! I love her like anything. 'It's wonderful to be loved, but the best thing in the world is to be understood' God can't be so cruel to me....one day...hopefully....one day.....my dreams will come true...but still the only question that arises in my mind is that....will my dreams, ever come true.........??????? Pray for me... Happy weekend

I AM WRITING THIS FOR YOU Yes, YOU. How are you today? How is life treating you? How are YOU treating life? Do you need a hug? Here, *HUG* I do not know you. I do not know your struggles. I do not know much about you except what I feel. That's okay. I don't need to know you. I know you will have good days and bad. And totally horrible days where you will feel it is pointless to go on. I hope you find a reason to not give up and continue on. You are beautiful inside and out. Yes, YOU. I don't know you have any ghosts from the past that haunt you or any regrets and past failures. I don't know you are dealing with things that may seem overwhelming. I know there are things on your mind right now that you are dreading dealing with. How many friends you have? I do not know, and it doesn't matter. We are many. We are different in so many ways, and yet still the same. Know you are not alone. Know there are some people on here who REALLY do care. I wish you light and peace

Uptown girl You know I can’t afford to buy her pearls.. But maybe someday when my ship comes in.. She’ll understand what kind of guy I’ve been.. And then I’ll win.. Uptown girl She is my uptown girl.. You know I’m in love With an uptown girl.. ………. Billy Joel Falling in love is a magical experience that happens between two people. But still I don't understand why do people fall in love? When a person finds someone they are attracted to who also seems to be attracted to them they feel the opportunity to expand themselves. While penning down my thoughts, the movie Shrek popped into my mind. In the movie, Lord Farquad wants to find love just so he can become king. It makes me think that he wants to expand his "self" and power. So is that all love is, a ‘Fake” emotion or is it really a word used to show a strong "relationship". While the duel with regards to is bound to continue let me get back to reason why I started this post. This post was not entirely about “why

Few months back I meet a girl , who is 6 years elder to me we became friends. In some meeting we went intimate and started liking each other. But after that she felt that things are going too fast and we are complete strangers to our backgrounds, ambitions and attitudes. So we thought of spending time together just like any normal friends do and check for ourselves how compatible we are. Things were going fine with me when one day she said that I must not call her often as it makes her think about my intentions. I don't understand what went wrong. I love her with all my heart and soul but she is confused. What is important in a relationship Love or Compatibility . "Hi all this is my first blog post , I request all fellow blogger to help me out i m totally confused."