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CHOTI SI AASHA

I always thought my life would be better in another world or even if I was brought up in another country but being in another world completely sounds better :) Have a forest where I can live like a free bird. Amidst the forest a laid back river where i can just sit back and listen to the music of Mother Nature. Have a wonderful group of friends around me that I love to be around. Live in this type of house or a little cottage house with a nice garden/yard where I can chill out and relax in Cottage . Have a banyan tree in my garden/yard. Have a beach close so I can sit quietly by myself, with friends or be with my true love having romantic walks along the ocean talking about stuff with them and sitting on the sand listening to the ocean with her arms around me While watching the sunset in the evening. Have a field to relax in (a lot of relaxing lol ), do a lot of staring up at the clouds or the stars seeing what shapes I can make out of them (with my love or friends). My dream girl wou

Falling in Love

Three people in my life so far, I have loved them.They told me that they: Loved Adored Needed Wanted Me. I doubt anyone will ever feel that deeply for me. I don't even care if they fall out of love in time. I just want someone to love me so much that they fall in love with me and swim in the ultimate connection of being "at one" with me. Two complementary souls, blending with each other, happy to be mirrors. I would think that it's going to be a fantasy for me the rest of my life. But I met a girl online on some social media site. Everyday at least twice I think about this girl who I really love and she likes me back. The problem is that I live in Delhi and she lives in Chandigarh. I haven't seen her, we were thinking of having a long distance relationship. It's hard because we can't be together in person. We are in contact with each other, but it's not easy and emotional. I actually cry at night sometimes and I know it isn't right for guy like mys

Dream

I screamed but no one hears, I failed trying to communicate I can see everyone but no one hears me. No one really listens all they hear is from their own heart, their own desires, their own ambition. Today Siting in my office all alone feeling very much disowned by my office colleague and my friends. These days I am very much upset can't find way to escape, don't have enough courage to fight the situation. I don't know ke mai apni baate kis se bolu . So I thought to write it down I have been having tons of dreams about her my first love but the strange thing is her fiance is in all of them. In my last dream. I was some how homeless and she let me stay with her and her fiance (who was kind of senior in my office) I just remember that in the dream she was around a lot but was very cold to me yet at the same time very concerned. I remember a lot of old emotions coming back and me wanting her acceptance. We were together her living room and me leaving the house telling her I w

Feeling Weak

I know I can scream and scream but no one will come and save me what's the point of screaming . I am a lost cause. The screams fill my ears, blood flows down my arms, I can no longer scream, my voice has grown weak, the darkness comes out of the shadows , I can feel its cold , icy embrace, I close my eyes, and embrace the darkness, I can no longer fight it . It is amazing how the existence of some people in our life can make us smile from the heart out. I Really, Really Need a Hug " jadu ki jhappi "

What happens to your email account after you die?

REMEMBER that time you poured your heart out in an email to your best friend after one too many glasses of wine? Or that sexy message from an old lover that made you blush at work? Well, if you die, your family and others could end up reading them. Web email services owned by internet giants Google and Microsoft have a policy of keeping your data after you die and letting your next of kin or the executor of your estate access it. Accounts with Google's Gmail can hold up to 7GB - or roughly 70,000 emails with a small to medium picture attached to each and they archive the messages you've written as well as received. When it comes to deleting the data, Microsoft's Hotmail will remove an account if it is inactive for 270 days, while Gmail leaves the responsibility to the next of kin. Of the top three providers, only Yahoo refuses to supply emails to anyone after the user has died. The user's next of kin can ask for the account to be closed, but cannot gain access to it. A

I know I cant but I still do

I never thought that I would ever be in Love....let alone find true & real love.Until one day I met the Love of My Life & Soul mate. She is soo amazing & perfect. She makes me the happiest that I have ever been. Just when I think that I can fall more in Love with her...she always ends up proving me wrong...I fall more in love with her every single day. She makes me want things that I have never wanted before, like marriage & kids & a family. She makes me feel things that I never thought I would or could ever feel. I feel soo loved & wanted & needed. I know that I should not love you the way I do.... no I can't its wrong but I love you anyways. I know you can never know but a part of me still longs to tell you. When you are near me it takes all my self control to not shout it out In fact I can't dare to tell you. I wish you say the smallest thing and it will bring a smile to my lips but you can never know so i must stay here with this broken heart a

Will My Dreams Ever Come True................?????????

When I saw her for the first time she was slim, shy, sincere, decent, punctual, still she is the same... I usually watch her very now and then as the moment I get free. I really want her to look at me...just once! However, the irony of life kills me. She never even give me a look, even a short and a simple glance back, this fact does not change my attitude towards her! I love her like anything. 'It's wonderful to be loved, but the best thing in the world is to be understood' God can't be so cruel to me....one day...hopefully....one day.....my dreams will come true...but still the only question that arises in my mind is that....will my dreams, ever come true.........??????? Pray for me... Happy weekend